"Sometimes there are just no words to say those things that are deepest in our hearts"

It is still a difficult transition from what we use to know and feel to now. Maybe its how I am or always have been. Never really expressing whats inside, but being that rock the strong one everyone expects or needs. Maybe its what i expect from myself. I've built thses walls that i think are slowly coming down, or maybe its cuz the the holiday season jus passed and a birthday coming up that has me more emotional than normal.

At first it was jus not feel like doin anything at all period. Now I do feel like going out but I don't or it fades away quick. Its difficult to move on with my life when everything is still a question and no signs of any answers. I may seem like i got it together but a piece of me is still hurting. Still buried inside.

A lot has to do with planning and thinking of the future. What to do next, am i ready for that next step, and what to i want to do. I thought i had all the answers kind of sorted out, now with everything happening within the last 6 months everythigns changed, i've changed.

Its been six months to the day on my birthday...

A New Year!

Time has flown by pretty quick and already '06.
It wasnt really a Merry Christmas or Happy New Year was difficult and and just not as happy as it should of been. I dont even know wat to say or whats going on.
Whatever...

Anyways Happy New Year!