For Honor, For Glory

The only highlight this week was the movie 300. It's a great guy movie, and enjoyable. Enough violence but not too much to make it gruesome. I enjoyed it that watched it during lunch today, haha. Work will always be there, and doesn't seem like it will let up. Bitter still that i have to do the jobs of 3 people and not getting paid, at least today worked on getting a promotion=more money. So tired of work too much work and never enough time. I hate being so disorganized, but its organized chaos. Even though its messy now i know where everything is. Just can't wait to hire the new people to take over and i can actually do my job properly.

On a side note spent Sun just looking around at homes and condos and see what one day i could afford. It was actually quite relaxing and fun to go through model homes and just walk through them. Made me think am i finally moving on, or why do i still have regrets and guilt. I think moving out will mean moving on at least to me. I cant even feel sorry for myself properly. I still have my regrets and moments but then i think of other people and how they have it worse or know what it feels like. I havent found real closure, i think i've closed the door half way and just need that other half for closure. Maybe i shouldnt have closure or even se it as closure. I still havent accepted fully everythings that happened. Maybe cause i blame myself when there is no blame, maybe thats why i cant let go fully. I tend to have trouble letting go of things and maybe i need to refocus my thought my energies into myself. To rediscover who and what i am.