You don't want to burden folks with your own pain

"You don't want to burden folks with your own pain. It's not fair"
Interesting quote read in a book today, a day of all days. 3 years and and still it hurts.
Today was a nice day, overall but thinking of where life is going and what to do. I feel i'm still holding to the past and not moving on, moving forward in life. Talking with everyone i see how boring my life has gotten and a disappointment it seems. Being reminded of things and constant questioning just makes me feel inferior in a way. I've seen how i use it as an excuse to not move forward or find a way to, its been a crutch in some way and i dont know how to let go, or ease the pain. The years have been kind, and the pain lessens day to day, but its still there and i dont know what to do anymore.

Today always sux, and it feels like yesterday. Wish i could of changed the past to better my future. I just wished things were different.